Friday, 5^th November 2004 | 1:53 PM
20 Questions

Got this from Nicole:

1. Tell me something obvious about you.

I'm fat, and I've been fat all my life.

2. Tell me something about you that many don't know.

I don't actually love myself. I give the impression that I'm very comfortable with who I am, physically and in other ways, but I actually am not.

3. What is your biggest fear?

I dread the day when my parents will be gone forever. The day that I lose one of them, or both, is the day I fear most in life.

4. Do you normally go the safe route or take the short cut?

It depends on the short cut now, doesn't it? But I guess I generally go the safe route.

5. Name one thing you want that you can't buy with money.

Joy.

6. What is your most treasured possession?

My computer.

7. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do often?

That I'm too lazy to exercise and I keep putting it off.

8. Tell me something sexually about you that I don't know.

I get horny.

9. Tell me something sexually about you that everyone knows.

Erm. I'm heteresoxual?

10. What is your favorite lie to tell?

"Yes." I say this even when I mean no. Mainly because whatever I just said yes to was too much and I need to get away from it for a while to put it all in perspective, and saying 'no' wouldn't enable me to do that.

11. Name something you've done once that you can't wait to do again.

Visit Europe.

12. Are you the jealous type?

Nope.

13. What is the one person, place or thing you can't say no to?

My parents.

14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?

Whenever I feel like I'm in the depths of hell and I express myself in this diary, and someone takes the time to write to me about it. Otherwise it would be the surprise birthday party my friends threw me back in '97.

15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be?

Quit my job, and work from home as a writer.

16. When was the last time you cried?

Yesterday, reading articles in the local papers about the anguish of Huang Na's parents over the loss of their daughter. Huang Na is an 8-year-old girl from China. She went missing last week, and after days of searching her decomposed body was found just a couple of days ago. Forensic tests show that she died from suffocation. Reading about the anguish her parents are feeling, and trying not to imagine the horror and pain the little girl went through in her last moments, is absolutely heartbreaking.

17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered?

It's been a while now - I really can't remember.

18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on?

Nope.

19. Name something embarrassing you did while being drunk.

I've never gotten drunk.

20. If you post this in your journal would you like me to answer it?

Please do - and let me know if you do.

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