Friday, Jun. 10, 2005 | 9:55 AM
Checking in, depressingly

Sorry for the lack of updates, but the lack of a personal PC still remains. I'm dead broke, so unless my parents bail me out on that front, it's gonna look like that for a while. You guys have no idea how tempted I am to get a loan just so I can get a new iBook or a Mac. I'm very very close to be as desperate as that.

The previous entry was a 'random facts about me' sort of entry that I'd been working on for a while now. I wanted to do a 'restlessly 101' thing.. but can only think of 50 things for now. I'm sure my mind will think of more and I'll add to it as time goes by.

Some updates on what's been going on with my life. We got the keys to our new flat this week, and I've been by to see it. I don't think it's as big as our current flat, but it looks to be pretty spacious as far as new flats go. The previous owner has done some nice work with some built-in storage space, and I immediately said I wanted the room with the built-in desk. We're on the top-most floor of the building, which is pretty cool in terms of privacy and quietness. No more having to hear people fight or quarrel, or children or cats or dogs making noise at night. And no more wondering who's looking at me when I'm in my room or whatever.

I had my French exams this week as well. They sucked, and I just hope I pass. I'm having a bit of a French class withdrawal though, but what to do? I have no money as yet to continue with them.

I'm dead broke. I've overspent this month, and I'm suffering for it. Sigh.

Yet another one of my girlfriends got married this month. I'm preparing for the day when I will be the only single one left. I'm curious about this marriage bandwagon everyone seems to be on? Is there something I'm missing? Because I totally don't feel like I'm ready for marriage. There's my sad pay against having to pay off my study loan, etc. Helping to support my parents and current family and the list of things I would like to do before I settle down (a bit more travelling, etc.). And the fact that I really enjoy my independence. My younger sister looks set to get married before me - to which I say, yay, finally I get my own room. I'm trying not to think about the awkwardness when the day finally comes, when people realise that my parents younger daughter is getting married ahead of their older daughter. But.. whatever.

Work's the usual overwhelming burden that it's been for a while now. Apparently in this shitty economy, the way for companies to tell you they really believe you're good is to give you more responsibilities sans wage increment. More important responsibilities for sure, but I still have to do whatever I used to do previously. But you know, I actually love my job, and I guess I should count myself lucky.

I haven't been exercising, I'm always tired these days and on several occasions recently I find myself having to fight insomnia. I'm guessing that first bit there might be the cause, and everything else is the effect. But I really relish having some quiet time to myself.

Sorry to be depressing. Maybe you'd like to check out my blog, where I update more frequently with less personal (and therefore, more interesting, probably) stuff. People from my real life read that, that's why I'm less inclined to be all 'pouring out my woes' on that blog.

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