Wednesday, 15^th June 2005 | 10:12 AM
Crappiness all around

So, was yesterday a shitty day or what?

I had the longest day at work, filled with what seems like every other person in the office bugging me every other hour for one thing or other and then I stayed in the office an hour later till my neck and shoulders were so tense in protesting. Then when I decided a long bus ride home would calm me down better than taking the train, there was a huge jam en route. I don't know what happened. I fell asleep as my bus was inching its way through. By the time I reached home I was semi-calm.

And then I came home with the realisation that from now on until the move, we might as well be living out of boxes.

These are times when, unfortunately, I realise why people turn to drinking and smoking.

I think my body's trying to tell me that it's stressed. I went to the toilet three times yesterday, which either meant a flare-up in my IBS, or part of my PMS symptoms package. I'm having insomnia - I didn't fall asleep until after 1am this morning although I went to bed at about 11pm. My skin is breaking out - I counted about 4 or 5 new whiteheads on my face last night as I was washing it.

I'm losing my mind, I tell you.

And as I'm so swamped at work, it heartens me to know that Maddy and Nia are enjoying themselves somewhere in east Malaysia, and some of my cousins are on holiday in Kuala Lumpur. I would've been on either of those trips except for the fact that I'm dead broke and completely swamped at work.

There was something else I'd wanted to write about, but I'm so tired and moody I can't think straight right now and can't remember what it was about. Maybe I'd wanted to say how I find Tom Cruise scary and creepy right now. *shudder*

Oh, and I think I once mentioned a colleague who's so into politicking and making himself look good and enhancing his own career at the expense of others. Yesterday I learnt something about him which just about makes him irredeemable in my book. Previously I was able to tolerate him - thank God, my work scope doesn't have me dealing directly with him, but I was able to be civil towards him. After what I learned yesterday, I think it's almost impossible for me to hear his name right now, or look at him without being sick. He implicated another colleague in one of his foolish and malicious actions, and didn't own up to it. But let's just put it this way, he always tries to use his 9 years of experience against me. But you know what? I've only held down a "real" job for slightly over two years now and I think I know far better than him on how to be professional. I think only an idiot sexist pig like him can tell off-colour jokes to people he meets in his working environment. And worse, doing malicious things in someone else's name? I used to think that I was being paranoid when it comes to dealing with him, that I'm just prejudiced towards him unfairly. But at this moment I think he has no redeemable feature and sometimes I wonder how he manages to keep his job. He makes me sick.

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