Friday, 25^th February 2005 | 3:53 PM
Better, but not all well yet

So it's been a while. I've been off the exercise wagon. Basically because from this month onwards we start half an hour earlier than our previous work hours, end at the same time, I've been getting my body clock used to rising earlier. Some days I do well, some days I don't. I hate not being able to have breakfast early in the morning, and I'm slower in the morning. So basically I've been leaving the house just when the sun's peeking out (7am, or slightly before), trying not to worry about what might go wrong that would make me late. Been late a few times, but have had this "F-it" attitude about it. I mean, I have a 1 1/2h commute MINIMUM on a good day. Each way. So far management's been cutting me some slack, but this past week I figured one month should be enough for me to get my act together.

Still busy with work. The other company (whom mine is merging with) is having is staff moved over here by the first week of next month. So for the past couple of weeks we've had to endure renovation works, and all sorts of noise and whatever while they get this place ready. I don't think many of us are looking forward to it, but it's inevitable and beyond our control.

Have been having meetings endlessly, as my boss is slowly letting go everything he's controlled before. He's been the typical micromanager all these years, because ours was a small business. He's a total control freak, and a total control freak micromanager can be a real nightmare to work for. But on his good days, he's good to work for. It's just... he has a tendency to forget that his staff are all adult individuals with individual capabilities of reasoning and intelligence, not to mention individual work styles. I don't know if it's all my years at university or what, but I find I work best with minimal supervision. Tell me what to do and if I can do it, I will do it when you want me to do it (if I can't do it, I'll let you know early on). As long as it's done, I don't see why so many nitpicking should be done about why I did how I did it, ending up with scolding on why I didn't do any other way. If I've made a mistake, I'm ready to learn, BUT LET ME LEARN.

Guess my naivety about the working world is showing there, huh?

I've been asked about my quarter-life crisis. Nothing much to say about it at the moment other than it's there, and I'm aware of it now. It's comforting to know that's what it is, because all this while I felt like there was something wrong with me, like I was going crazy. I've been reading this book about it, and while I don't think I'm totally out of it, I feel more reassured than before that I will get over it soon. Or if I don't get over it, or find all the answers to all the questions that I've been having, it will be okay after all.

In other news, I signed up for French class. I'll be taking a prep class that will be preparing me for two internationally recognised exams. I should have taken these two exams two years ago when I graduated from university, but I didn't relish the idea of taking so many exams just so soon from graduating. Then lack of money stopped me, so now I finally have some spare funds and time for it and I decided not to waffle so much and just do it. Money's limited, but our wants are not, so it's tricky trying to find a balance there. But worrying so much about it wouldn't get anything done.

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